its hard to let "it" sink, even though you know its coming, i look happy..
its cuz i've been keeping myself busy, if it weren't for my work and such
i would definitely be thinking abt "it", and when i do, i'll go back to my being angry and demented and hopeless, crap!
to let go of something you hold dear, even if you just got to know that something, is to let go nearly apart of yourself, and this isnt a metafore or a hypethetic
tell me that you dont feel a lil sad when you leave a helpless street cat who has been rubbing his head around your leg, even if its dirty
its hard it really is, to let go, to stop loving, to stop caring, its hard...
and right now im feeling that, for those who can read between the obvious lines of this blog, yes you are right...but im trying to get through it...
and to the person who is reading, im fine, i just need to keep myself busy until i can get back on my feet, until then, as i said to you last time, i won't be happy for 2-3 days, but im fine, not happy but fine..k?
