Trust...
damm it...trust is somethin really hard to built..but so fucking easy to destroy..
i lost trust in my self..SHE does too..
im tired...i love her...puteri suhaila..she means the world to me..
and i want to protect her and be with her as much as possible..and as tired as i am..i wont let anyone ruin this..
i wont let anyone ruin my relationship with her..i dont want to lose her at all...
it was hard enough she nearly left me..but now its my time..i need to shine..i neeed to get her trust back...
her love for me..i know she loves me..she told me...but she's too scared to show it now..and it was my fault to begin with...
i promise you...this isnt a phase..me being with you isnt jst a small phase for me..or even..a partner jst to pass on for matriks...i love you suhaila...more than anything...and if you're reading this..know that..i am...trying and working my best..i will grit my teeth and take all the hate and all the sarcasm you give and all the remarks you have of me..i would..i will go through everything to earn back your trust...
im hoping and praying that my plan for us would work..cuz being with you is neither a distraction nor a perfection..but its just beautiful on a different level, happiness on new heights, and love...on the truest of true..
