im not smart, i aint a rocket scientist or even a brain surgeon
im not a top student or even a valedictorian
im not the best in what i do or even the top 10
i live my life the way i feel it should be living
yes i've regretted a lot of my actions
bt im also proud of my acomplishments
and all i need from both of you is just recognition
see me as me, not as a your dream son
i want you to look at me and not have that disappointing look in you
that sympathetic eyes, those hurtful gestures
whatever i have done, what ever i did, as cliche as it sounds
i did it for both of you!
bt you just dont see that, i still remember my first prize for being in the top 10 student in my grade at my primary school
bt on that we had to go back to our hometown, i told both of you that i will go up on stage on that day
but you guys said that they wont do that to no 10 student, they only do it to the top 3, you guys cant even delay our departure till lunch hour just for me, just to see me up on the stage
so we departed early, the next week after the ceremony one my class teacher gave me my trophy and a certificate that i could've gotten on that day
bt i didnt care maybe cuz i was young back then, so i didnt care
bt then both of you still did it, you missed my kawad kaki, my f1 thing, even my pmr and spm results
bt here's the good part, every single thing my younger sister achieved, you're oh so proud of it! you went to her pmr results, to her first time participating on the track meet, to her anugerah kecemerlangan, to her nasyid recital, to almost everything you guys never been to mine you went to hers
fine call it jealousy or wtv! she's smart i admit it, the last one in the family, the baby of the family, the most loved
so where does that leave me, a reject? a third wheel? a free loader? a FAILURE!?
they say that parents are never not proud of their children, bt how come mine are so ashamed of me
im not in much of a mood to talk or to be answering calls, so please if YOU(you knw who you are) are reading is please just let me be...
later..
im not a top student or even a valedictorian
im not the best in what i do or even the top 10
i live my life the way i feel it should be living
yes i've regretted a lot of my actions
bt im also proud of my acomplishments
and all i need from both of you is just recognition
see me as me, not as a your dream son
i want you to look at me and not have that disappointing look in you
that sympathetic eyes, those hurtful gestures
whatever i have done, what ever i did, as cliche as it sounds
i did it for both of you!
bt you just dont see that, i still remember my first prize for being in the top 10 student in my grade at my primary school
bt on that we had to go back to our hometown, i told both of you that i will go up on stage on that day
but you guys said that they wont do that to no 10 student, they only do it to the top 3, you guys cant even delay our departure till lunch hour just for me, just to see me up on the stage
so we departed early, the next week after the ceremony one my class teacher gave me my trophy and a certificate that i could've gotten on that day
bt i didnt care maybe cuz i was young back then, so i didnt care
bt then both of you still did it, you missed my kawad kaki, my f1 thing, even my pmr and spm results
bt here's the good part, every single thing my younger sister achieved, you're oh so proud of it! you went to her pmr results, to her first time participating on the track meet, to her anugerah kecemerlangan, to her nasyid recital, to almost everything you guys never been to mine you went to hers
fine call it jealousy or wtv! she's smart i admit it, the last one in the family, the baby of the family, the most loved
so where does that leave me, a reject? a third wheel? a free loader? a FAILURE!?
they say that parents are never not proud of their children, bt how come mine are so ashamed of me
im not in much of a mood to talk or to be answering calls, so please if YOU(you knw who you are) are reading is please just let me be...
later..
