being hurt..or getting hurt...or causing hurt...is no longer an option..
you will end up hurting someone while trying to save another...its jst a simple life fact that cant be changed..
i was too naive to believe i could...
i know now i cant..
and i realise now..that i've hurt people so much more than saving them...its hard...its painful...its excruciating...
its hard to cope to the fact that you have the best on intentions to protect, to take care, to be there basically for them...but you end up hurting them...im not invincible i know...im not immortal..and basically im not a superhero..
a superhero can get away with destroying a few buildings by beating the bad guy and saving lives..
a normal person gets alienated trying to beat the bad guy and destroying buildings...even if they save lives...
i have made promises back then that seem so easy to do...now i know how big the pond is...i cant keep em...
its not intentionally..i swear...its jst...difficult...
" But EVERYONE else can, why cant you?"
because im not like everyone else, thats why i cant...i have the utmost respect towards them that can..but thats just not who i am at the moment..
"people do change huh?..."
i guess so...and i realise its not up to everyone else to determine if we change for the better or the worse..its up to ourselves...see...a chameleon changes colour to suit its environment...and at times the colour seems a bit off...but he changed nonetheless to suit his own purpose...his own objectives..not the environments...he merely suits with it...but not merge with it...get me?
so yeah.. i may have change..but im still zaki...
LATER!!!!
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