PISSED POST

this is juz a pissed post, i've been checking every one else's blog, and they have this thing in me, you knw when they juz write letters instead of name, and then, juz write pissed msgs to em, well im going to do that right now, so if anyone felt that they are the people im taling about, you might want to think again, cuz it might nt be you


reader descretion is advised, strong language is used a lot in this post, and i mean a lot, jwa i don't think you want to read it, but if you insist im not responsible





ok so here it goes:

(A) I cant believe you! you are one selfish person you know that, i know that i said that i can be stepping stone for you, but come on, have a heart or something, i mean, st least know that i have one, you changed you changed a lot, and the best part is you knew, but yet you still treat me like shit! Fuck laa, i cant take it anymore, but i still hang around so that you can be happy!

(B) WTF!!! its been like what 7-8 months already, and yet your still fucking pissed at me, and wanting to kill me other than that, you want me fine, come on bring it, juz becuase im a stick or wtv doesnt mean i cnt grab a steel pipe and hit your fucking head to bits! i cn still do that, you fuck! owh and you know what if you want to kill me so bad, i got two words for ya! SUCK IT!!!

(C) for all you fucking haters! get the fuck off my channel! and get the fuck off my myspace! who the fuck ask you to add me anyways you fucking fags! if you juz want to hate me, rather than wanting to know me, then dont even fucking calling me a PLAYER! cuz im not! you fucker! so know! or dont add me!

(D) yes i still love my freinds, no matter what they do, so dont tell me how to live my life, advice i cn handle, but directions is juz a lil too much, i appreciate the fact that you cared, but please its my life to live, i think, key word, i think i cn handle it myself, i juz need your advice thats all








as you have read, thats the side of me that im positively sure you dont want to see, better catch on Zaki's side rather than hearing from Valcrist here, so thats it for this post, no shoutouts again, i will post em, when i don something, or wanting to tell something, for now Good NYTE!

LATER!!!

frm me full of hate,
Valcrist

Words of Love?

I'm here for you,
words you regularly hear,
I love you,
are overused every single year...

My heart beats for you,
the sweetest thing you might say,
My heart doesn't love you,
the last thing you want him/her to say...

I cant live without you,
yet your still breathing,
I've moved on,
the words we pray not hearing...

I miss you,
though you see me everyday,
I hate you,
i wish i could see for one last day...

I'll never let go of you,
yet you do when you go,
I have to let go,
i still cant believe that you said so...

yesterday is what today is

ok so juz now or below you cn see i did a lil experimenting, i wrote a cyber novel, and so, since i got such a great feedback frm my friends and also since Nas told me i should seperate the blogs, then yeah thats what im going to do

so to get to my cyber novel, Staring Love in The Devils Eyes, click here to the other blogspot that i had made specially for my cyber novel, ok so on to my real blog

ok so yesterday, Sha and Syikin came to my hse, sha of course came to use my internet to search for scholarships and some career counselor, or was it college counselor, yh thats the one

so there's this one counselor, that had an office at Subang Jaya, so i decided im going to follow her to subang cuz im not sure what should i take either, i mean i wanted to be a teacher but i still need a back up plan rite? so yh..

then syikin calls, and ask me where i was and ask if she could come over, i said its fine cuz sha is here too, so then, she came, and boy did things got crazy then..

do you knw this show called Whose Line Is It Anyway? yh i love that show, if you havent heard of it, watch the videos below, they are really funny



that is one of my fave games in Whose Line, its awesome huh?




that is another one of my fave games in Whose Line, loL!

yh so Sha said why dnt we record something a sketch, and so by using sha's phone, we did a sketch, and boy were we crazy, loL! but yh, those sketches are now in sha's phone, whether she still has it is of unknwn to me, loL!

alryte then thats it, im kinda worn out after writing that prologue, yes it took a lot out of me, im sorry! loL! ok so, check my other blog, and dnt forget to follow it, to knw what'll happen next, thanks! good nyte! sweet dreams!

LATER!!!

frm your truly,
Z Zaki

cyber novel

Staring Love in The Devils Eyes
a novel
by
Ahmad Zaki



PROLOGUE

Love is a matter of understanding,
what he/she says,
what he/she thinks,
what he/she does...

Love is a matter of trust,
in decisions,
in life,
and even in death,

Love is a matter of attention,
at home,
at a work place,
and especially, at a date

he winks, the guests laugh as the pastor reads the notes on his hands, the pastor chuckles and continues...

Love doesn't think,
nor does it feel,
it acts without fear,
and acts wiv less regrets,

Love needs not directions to anothers heart,
it doesnt even knw by insticnts,
but to get there love has help,
frm destiny and fate,

the speech was quite long but yet interesting, i didn't remember the others as i fell asleep half way of the wedding, but as i woke up, claps and cheers and whistles were echoing in the room, i can even hear the person behind my back screaming CONGRATS!!! instantly i knew, the ceremony has ended, and there i see my best friend, kissing his newly wed wife in frnt of the pastor, i clapped and cheered as i looked around.

the bride and the grooms mothers were crying and as usual the dads juz act cool, and smiles happily and clap as hard as they can, i chuckled as i saw them like so

POP! POP! Fizz!

champagne bottles are poped everywhere, the night dinner was the after party of the ceremony and in my honest opinion the best part of the wedding, as its when i get to eat such expensive food. I cant remember the details but it was a great feast, for me it was more fulfilling than anything.

CLAPS! CLAPS! congratulations to the newly weds!

i turned and looked at the entrance of the party, there they were, standing there gorgeously together, the newly weds

"Tommy over here!" i shouted

the groom came walking through, seemingly endless, hand shakes and congratulations from the guests, he saw me, and hugged me straight away

"hey man, congrats on the wedding, here, a present frm me, its nothing much but i hope its well worth it," i said while giving him a poorly wrapped present, yes i wrapped it myself
"aww man, thanks, im glad you cn make it, where's Jane?"he asks
"owh her, yh we broke up weeks ago, i guess its juz not meant to be,"
" aww man, im sorry to hear that, but hey, maybe i cn set you up wiv one of Irin's cousins,"
"haha! nah, im cool, besides, where is Irin? i would love to meet the girl who convinced you to get married," i laughed while making such a lame joke
"owh yh, i think she went to bathroom or something, she said she was feeling sick, i mean its weird you knw, she was fine when the wedding started but then she started to feel dizzy and she's tired most of the rehersals, we went to see a doctor, but she said it was nothing"
"dude, dont you think that she might pregnant or sumthing, i mean aren't those like typical simptoms of a pregnant woman," i said to him

he stops and thinks and his expression changes as if the sky juz fell on top of his head and gave him an explanation or a surprise, he looked at me, staring into the distance for a while and said

"umm, im going to check on iris for a while, why don't you umm, hang around here, and umm..."he said nervously
"just go already!" i said

he ran as fast as he can back into the house, pass the dinner hall where the wedding was held, and up the stairs. I'd say thats the fastest i have ever seen him ran since he first saw irin on that bus, the first time their eyes met, the feeling that he had to juz keep running after that bus, was juz amazing, as he said, then out of nowhere

"EVERYONE!!! EVERYONE!!!," Tommy shouted on the second floor window of the house
"IM GOING TO BE A FATHER!!! IM GOING TO BE A FATHER!!!"

cheers and claps, and more congrats flying everywhere, coming from all directions, i clapped and smiled, what a day for him, married and juz discovered that he's going to be a father, man, it'd be a dark day for me if this ever happened in my life...

END of PROLOGUE

this is not what happened in my life, or in anyone's life, the names and the story is fictional, and if there are similarities to your life or anyone others, is juz a mere coincidence, im sorry, if these names and stories bring you bad memories, frm the bottom of my heart im really sorry

so this is juz a story i wrote, i was bored at home today, and so i thought why not a start a cyber novel, loL! so yh, this is juz the prologue of the novel, and i hope you enjoyed reading it, though it is quite confusing, loL!ok so yh, place your comments on the Cbox, k? they are really appreciated, thank you!

frm your truly,
Z Zaki

PicS and a Vid

ok so i said yesterday im going to post pics, but i didnt say im also going to post my dance vid! loL!

so yh, i guess if you hv read my last post on dancing, that i posted a couple of vids on youtube, but this new vid was juz uploaded recently, and its not as good as my other vids(are my other vids even that good?), but its still something i guess

but before that i shall post the pics first!


this was when jwa was like take a video why dont cha! and i was like OK! thats a great idea

but sadly enuf that vid is highly classified and cn only be viewed by nas, jwa and my eyes, i will let you knw once i got permssion frm the masters(jwa and nas, but mostly jwa) if i cn upload the vid

that is Lala(in red) and Tini, loL! tini's bro is the one having the party


you prolly wondering where are the kids, well they are kinda buzy wiv the clown, so we took the time to EAT! thats a cheesecake btw


we got masks! and a teddy bear!

candid!


i look so damn scary and ugly and horrible, yh i knw!
but yh thats the Teddy bear and the Mask that i got, they both match wiv my shirt! loL!

jwa is playing wiv her teddies! well actually the other 2 in Nas's



not the most prettiest pics but hey thats why i love you Nas, loL! joking but yh still love you!

ok so that was the pics of what happened yesterday, and yes nas you cn Curik the pics, loL! ok so next im going to show you my dance vid, its a lil rusty but hope you'll like it!



SHOUTOUT:

1. to Nas and Jwa: i finished editing the vid, and i really think ya'll going to love it, i said i think...
2. to all the YOU!Tube-ers out there: i have a channel and its filled wiv my dance vid, click here to view my channel, add me once your there and check my vids!

so thats it for today, hope you enjoyed this post! Untill Next time! GOOD NYTE!

LATER!!!

frm yours truly,
Z Zaki

DrIvE!

ok so today(if you have been keeping up wiv Jwa's blog), i'll be one of the few first passenger that jwa has since she got her License which she got yesterday, loL!

yh ok so,
Tini had a Bday party for his lil bro at Rumah Aman, Seksyen 2
so Jwa was going to pick me up first but then her parents was like observing her frm another car, so i cnt follow

so then i thought, ok what the hell, i'll juz call the cab! and by GOD! was that a mistake, i mean really, man, i knew that calling cabs to your hse will be like long, but damn it man!

i waited for like an hour! and i called the cab again, and they still havent showed up! im telling you if i had the chance to blast at them i would've, i mean i respect the fact that they are juz tryng to get money to support the'r family and what not

but come on! when a person calls you, personally calls you! at least you cn do is give that person a priority or something, i mean like i was waiting at my home, at my hse is like near the big road, so i cn see like 5 to 6 taxi's juz passing by on the other side, and not one came! i mean WTH!!!

juz drive your cab up the hill and get that bumper of tin can, to my hse! crap! ok so im a lil off topic ok so then jwa called me asking me where i am, i said im still at my hse, and so she and nas decided they are going to pick me up frm my hse

at that moment, i was like, should i call the cab guys again? hem...yh nah, i dt think so, juz let em be, i knw evil right but serves them rite, i mean come on! an HOUR! a F******G long hour! loL!

ok so then i was like Nas take a pic of jwa driving, and jwa was like why dnt you juz take a movie why dont cha! and i was like thats one hell of an idea! haha! so yh i took a vid of jwa's first day of driving! and i shall post that some other time hopefully, ok so then on our way there

Nas was like i think we should pick up Lala, so we did, and then straight went to Rumah Aman, and honestly in my opinion who ever rides wiv jwa you guys really have got to knw your way arnd, i mean, as what she says in her blog, she's a good driver juz not that good in directions, loL!

ok so yh, i took a few pics there, and i got a gift bag! wohoo! yh and then i met up wiv tini! and OMG! i juz notice that her mom's voice is the same as hers, you vnt tell that much of a diff, and i mean seriously,

owh and inside the rumah aman, there was tis huge, and i mean like huge clown, and of course nas was quite scared of it, but i was actually shocked when she was the first one to storm into the room, while i was still behind, loL!

ok so then, arnd 4 or sumthing like that, jwa had to go home, and so since my ride home is her too, i get the chance to be in a car wiv her for the second time! loL! ok so yh, again, its a good thing i was quite good at directions, cuz jwa was like, ok wait left or right, wait huh? left, no? right? what? loL!

but yh on top of all that, she was actually a fantastic driver, i mean honestly, she actually really is! haha! so yh wiv that i ended my day and now im here editing the video and uploading pics to my USB to give to nas, loL!

SHOUTOUT:

1. to jwa: Nas, Lala, and i are so proud of you, well, especially me! loL!
2. to Tini: thanx for the party, and thx for the gifts its awesome
3. to Lala: OMG! woman, i didnt knw i'll be at shah alam, crap, i guess i wont be seeing you gals
4. to Nas: im still editing the Video, dnt worry your the first to knw when the vids is finish edited and uploaded, loL!

so thats it for this post, pics and the vid, will be posted tomorow, untill then!
Goodnyte! sweetdreams!

LATER!!!

frm yours truly,
Z Zaki

i loVe WriTing in GeneRal

i love writing, not juz in blogs but also in poetry, lyrics, stories, and even scripts. i cn definitely say, i love writing in general, but im not that good at it, as you can see and read for the past few blogs, loL!

ok yh so as i was saying, my life is like a storybook( or a drama, or a television series, and maybe even a sitcom) unwritten, so i chose to write stuff abt what happens in my life using words...loL! duh! what else im using...

ok so this is one of my Poems, and the title is called Should I Leave...

Should I leave this place one day...
im hoping that all the memories i have will stay...
thinking of what i went through all the years...
laughing at every bumps and cheers...
Should I leave this place i call home...
knowing that this day would come and i have to face it alone...
tears started dripping and my throat started choking...
i cant bare the thought of leaving...
Should I leave this school tomorrow...
i shall leave the memories that i know...
hoping no one destroys them...
hoping that everyone remembers them...
I shouldn't leave this place that i love so dearly...
because this is where my dream started..
where my dream happened..
and where my dream ended...
Should I leave this life...
i shall leave with a smile...
knowing that i left my memories of old..
to make new ones that's shall soon be foretold...

this poem was actually written the day i started leaving school...

but in reality, the phrase Place, is different in other peoples opinion, i posted this poem at the Arena in Gaiaonline.com( i got a 4 star so far for this poem), and one of the comments was that, someone has to leave someplace one day, anywhere you maybe, you will have to leave it one day, no matter who you are you will leave something behind to gain something more...

and then juz now i was looking through my memories bag(its a bag full of items that i place dearly in my heart) and i found a couple of other poems that inspired me to write this post, loL! talk abt no inspiration

this is a note actually that Jwa left me(still remember it jwa?) in one of my notebooks i was having one of my off days, and well this note i keep it near in my heart as this note is what keeps me alive each and everyday, thx jwa! you really changed my life! love you so much!

this is how it goes

Hei, its me...duh! I juz want u 2 know that u're special to me, Hannah, Nasquin, Asyikin, Elyas, ur Family and everyone else. U being here with us is a blessing. Whatever your problem is, we're here. I just wanted you to know, thas all.Bubye, have a nice day! :)

your friend,
Najwa
26.4.05

i didnt change a thing this is what it says on my notebook and i post it juz for you guys and for memories sake...

ok so this next one is actually frm the movie/novel A Walk to Remember, they are quotes that Jamie loves in a book i cnt remember what, but these lines were resided when they were getting married

Love is always patient and kind.
It is never jealous, Love is never boastful or conceited
It is never rude or selfish, It does not take offenses and is not resentful,
Love takes no pleasure in other peoples sins, but delights in the truth.
It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope and to endure whatever comes

some of you may remember if you actually watch the movie, loL! but yh its actually a great movie, so check it, but if you have never heard of it, then you must've lived under the sea!

and the next ones are quite a few quotes that i made up myself which are quite good

Promise arent always true, Lies arent always flaw

Trust your heart, trust your insticts, if you think its right, then it is

Do the one thing everyday that scares you

well, those are juz a few examples, i wrote a lot more sayings that are meaningful i love to do that, i dnt knw why though

in conclusion, writing has a great impact in my life as it is how i express myself, and how others sends their msgs, and how they express themselves, i mean as you cn see in their blogs words are what makes our lives interesting and words are what makes our lives worth living

SHOUTOUT:

1. to ana: haha relaks dude, the manager maybe a bitch but that doesnt mean you have to be, loL!
2. to sha: congrats on the job! haha, i'll be looking forward to that one!
3. to syikin: i knw im not the best friend you have rite now, but i'll really think of something to make it up to you, i promise!
4. to Suria kawad team: your commander is an ass, if he thinks he cn juz boss people arnd juz cuz he is the commander well he is dead wrg, he cnt even teach you guys anything rite abt kawad and he wants me out! F him! you want my respect well start giving me your respect, you ASS!

well thats it for this post untill then, Good Nyte! Sweet DreamS!

LATER!!!

frm yours truly,
Z Zaki

MorE pIcS! i kNw BarE wIv mE heRE

ok so these are the pics i hv in frnt of jwa's hse! and some of them are at jwa's backyard too...loL!



Capeq posing pulE~ haha!


dnt ask... ish ish ish *shaking my head
loL!

i asked them to stand where they are, a pretty bad pic, huh? i knw!



an up shot of the four of us, capeq masuk bawah sgt loL!



looking down on the camera eyh? loL!

i shall end this post wiv my most fave pic of the day! the last pic of the photobooth!



*credits to Nas on the editing

funny story, when we were taking this pic there was this kid who was like suddenly opening the curtain and juz stared at us while we were frozen in our pose, so the kid was like

"What in the hell are they doing?"

haha! yh so thats it for the Vday pics and thats it for this post. and i cn honestly say if a pic is worth a thousand words mine must've said billions and billions by now! haha!

SHOUTOUT:

1. to FaRah: dnt worry, look maybe its juz that your juz having one of those days like i do! loL!
2. to Nas: as i hv said on my Cbox, i knw that you'll give me your usb, but im posting juz for fun, loL!
   
3. to SyiKin: you must really hate me rite now for not going to that picnic, i knw cuz i hate my self to rite now...
4. to the people that Vday didnt went well: dnt worry your not alone, i mean i didnt say mine wasnt well, but juz so you knw there are a lot of people out there who are also goin through what your going through so suck it up! and enjoy life! cuz you dnt need a girl/guy in your life to be happy, you juz need you!

well thats it, Gud Nyte! Sweet Dreams!

LATER!!!

frm yours truly,
Z Zaki

A piC iS woRtH a tHouSaNd WoRdS 2

as i hv said on my last post i'll post the pics in the cab and in frnt of jwa's hse today, if thou hv not see the pics at sunway look below! loL! ok so we took like tons and tons of pics in the cab, so the cab pic will be in this post and the pics in frnt jwa's hse will be tonyte, haha!

jwa keeps bugging me like, what part of a full heart dnt you get? loL!

and sadly enuf, in these few pics, i cnt get a full heart...sigh....haha

yh dnt ask why nas do that...

capeq menyampuk! haha!

nas is still annoyed by the disturbance capeq caused, loL!

no jwa wasnt sleeping, i juz took a candid, and weirdly enuf it looks kinda nice, loL!

LOVE IS IN frnt of nas's face??? wth???


well this is a pic of( juz for the sake of this blog i call it Mocha! but the name of it isnt mocha, seriously) one of jwa's guinea pigs, juz a couple of em haha!


in this pics he looks a lil like Bugsy frm Bedtime Stories, loL!

shououts shall be posted tonyte on a later time, i promise

More pics coming sooN!

A piC iS woRtH a tHouSaNd WoRdS

as you see at the title today, i shall post wiv pics, well mostly, ok so today is

VALENTINES DAY!!!

WOHOO! to all you couples out there! well, me, capeq, jwa and nas(of course!) went to sunway to spend time to love each other in the moment of...

OWH CUT THE CRAP! loL! haha, well, yh true, that we went to sunway, and true to the part we were juz going there for fun, cuz we havent seen each other in like ages! espacially capeq and jwa! and thats becuz:

1. Jwa - was at umrah for two weeks
2. Capeq - buzy wiv his own life
3. Nas - has work in the morning till 5 o'clock, so the weekly bowling was out
4. Zaki - i juz cnt go out that often...loL!

yh ok so, nas and jwa was like its v day! and the four of us should go somewhere, and nas was like yh lets go to sunway! and jwa was like YH! i wanna go take the pictures in the photobooth! and im like what, i went to subang like on thursday! man!

loL! ok so we agreed, and so we went to sunway today, and these are a few pics of the day


this was where me and capeq was waiting at for jwa and nas, and no, they werent late, me and capeq was, they went in wivout us, and we kinda were lost so we juz waited here, loL!


yh after we went to this sushi place, and yh dnt ask me what it was cuz i cnt remember anything but the food there! OMG!!! AWESOME!


yh weird enuf, the girls wanted a pic wiv the guy, so i was like wth, ABANG!!! nk amik gambar, loL!



NOTE to self: nas is afraid of mascots!
loL! this is a pic of her wiv berry and lemon, the mascots of ribena's new Blackcurrent & Lemon


as you cn see we have our own BERRY(capeq) and LEMON(nas)
this was after she faced her fear, loL! the traumatic experience still haunts her....loL!



owh me and nas played that DDR thingy and won ourselves two watches! RIBENA STYLE! loL!
but they werent even hard, i think it was easy or sumthing..loL!


as you can see nas still hasnt recovered....loL!



these are the last few pics i have when we were at sunway, we went to the movies(watched new in town, nice but not my thing) before we went home and by that time it was like 5.30 or sumthing loL! so everyone was freaking out, and i cnt describe it, you actually have to be there...loL!

yh so thats it for tonyte, tomorow i shall post the pics in the cab and in frnt of jwa's hse, hopefully...

SHOUTOUT:

1. to Nas, Jwa, Capeq: thanks for the craziest day EVER! as i said it aint great it was CRAZEY!!!! loL!
2. to Harinder: dnt worry, dude, i hate vdays too, well, not hate, juz dnt like it, loL!
3. to the people arnd the world: HAPPY VDAY! and have fun!
4. to everyone who doesnt know NigaHiga: search on him at youtube! and you'll laugh the instant you hear him speak! loL! he is really funny!

well, thats it for now, untill then, gud nyte! sweet dreams!

LATER!!!

frm yours truly,
Z Zaki

sonGs aRe grEaT foR tHe SouL!

GOOD EVENING!!!

i knw i havent post anything for the last few days..but hey, i needed a time off, my head was filled wiv probs and stuff that doesnt actually matter, loL! ok so today i'll share a few pics wiv ya'll...owh btw...

Valentines day is this Saturday, and for all you dating couples, have fun! but for those dateless singles, me included, lets curse the people who are celebrating V-Day...loL! joking...

owh and for jwa and nas, yh i think i cn go this sat, but isnt the next day was like syikins thingy???
owh and to my sis, HAPPY BELATED BDAY!!! her bday was yesterday, and i bought her this

yes it is in fact Take That's new album the circus, my sis is a big fan

ok so, now im like so bored as to i hv actually nothing to say today or any other day, the fact that i hv always spent my days the same, so everyday nothing much interesting happens...loL!

owh and please do listen to the first song on the playlist! its a really good song, but the others are juz my fave...loL!

this is me older sis, she's now going to the kursus perguruan utk lepasan ijazah


this is me bro and me younger sis, the young one, Nadya was the one that had her bday, and my bro now is still studying but he still sells his T-Shirts, check his blog, Closet 3110


and this is me and my siblings all together

your prolly wondering when was this, well, it was arnd last year i think, for hari raya aidilfitri. it was really fun, but still at that time i had to think abt SPM so the fun lasted juz untill 12 o'clock

SHOUTOUT:

1. to nas and jwa: i really hope this sat will be on, and somebody please contact capek, loL!
2. to syikin: dude what happen to your blog i cnt open it no more
3. to kawad suria: well, im really sorry but i guess this sat ya'll got school so we cnt actually train wiv the morning session

well thats for now, untill then! have fun! goodnight! sweet dreams!

LATER!!!

frm yours truly,
Z Zaki

the other personality

How is it, you cn face your fears but never yourself?
its weird isnt it, there always another part of you that you dont show to the world...

and that part juz stays there, but one day what if...
what if that part of you, the part that your ashamed of, juz jumps out..

and starts to say the things you mean but you dont want to say it to the world...
why is it so hard for us to accept the fact that the other part of you is actually you..

i mean everyday, we fought wiv ourselves to not let anyone knw how we really feel..
i myself fought this battle...

yes everyone has their own opinions but they juz cnt voice it out..
no one can, cuz they are all afraid to face the truth that they are who they are..
and there is not a thing or person can change that...

we have our own demons, but why do we have to call them demons?
they are juz a part of us that tells the truth..
and isnt telling the truth is a good thing...
mean as they are, bad as they may be, evil it may seems...

it is our thoughts, we felt that way, so why is it so wrng?
becuz speaking the truth meaning you have to tell lies too...
becuz you knw even if what you say is true, you knw its all a lie..
cuz everything is juz in your head...

nothing more nothing less....
and no im not going to voice out my opinion...
but i will say this...

accept who you are, nothing cn change the fact that you are juz that..
accept it, trust it, believe it...
and some day, it might even give you something in return..

i knw this post has been a rambling of an idiot..
but i juz hv to get it out..
and posting it on this blog is one of the ways i knw how...
i mean half of it doesnt make actual sense, i think...
but hey, these are my thoughts..

and I accept it...

SHOUTOUT:

1. to my friends on YM! : im sorry to cause that sudden panic, and i will tell you when IS the confirm date hopefully tomorow..
2. to SPM candidates *08: the date of the results for now(yet to be confirmed but rumored) is set to be on the 23rd of February

goodnyte! sweet dreams! thanks for reading

frm yours truly,
Z Zaki

PerSonA 3

PERSONA 3 is AWESOME!
rated as the Game of the year 07 countless times, controversial but yet beautiful!

"Persona 3 is the future of RPG gaming" -Neil Chandran, RPGfan.com
"Excellent, sinister story draws you in from the very beginning" -Gamespot
"Shin Megami Tensei: Persona 3 is one of the best RPGs to hit the PS2 this year"
-Starscream, GameVortex Communications AKA Ricky Tucker

this game an RPG(role-playing game) genre, it has your basic Dungeon exploring, Character level up, Weapons and equipment, Monster Summoning and also a Riveting Storyline...

but this game is unlike the FF series, unlike them, you have to grow your Main Character in 3 ways:

1. Acedemics
2. Understanding
3. Courage

but not only that you also have to maintain & max your relationship towards a certain character, these are called your Social Links.

and these Social Links will determine the Strength of your Persona. A persona is kinda like a monster that you summon frm within, now a Persona is divided into different Arcana's, i cnt remember how many, but its more than 13..

As all of the RPG games, its point of attraction is the story line,
and the same goes for P3, in this game the story rotates arnd one significance event in our lives Life and Death

now to knw the game even further i recomend you buy it, but if you cnt then you cn check this link although it might give out a few spoilers

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Persona_3

"The moment man devoured the fruit of knowledge, he sealed his fate... Entrusting his future to the cards, man clings to a dim hope. Yet, the Arcana is the means by which all is revealed. Beyond the beaten path lies the absolute end. It matters not who you are...
Death awaits you. "

SOPILER ALERT!!!

this saying actually comes when SEES battles Nyx at the end of the game, its actually very interesting...the battle wasnt that hard, i mean technically you'll juz need a HP of 450+ and a lot of healing, but during the battle, Nyx will start changing his arcana, and he'll speak the words above untill "Yet, the Arcana is the means by which all is revealed." and then he'll say things that are related to the arcana, the above one is the Death arcana

here's a video frm the game at the last battle featuring quotes of the first 13 arcanas...



powerful quotes isnt it...really heart felt...click here if you wish to hv the song in the video

the song is called The Battle for Everyones Soul, but the opera-ish part is actually frm another song which is called The Poem for Everyones Soul, that song is actually played n the Velvet Room, click here for the song.

Shouout:

1. this post is juz another random post which has nothing to do wiv what i did yesterday or today, im juz posting cuz my draft is kinda full wiv a lot of other stuff, loL! anyways, the post on the events of what happen yesterday is tomorow, hopefully, or maybe even tonyte!
   

yes P3 is in mind right now as i hvnt played the game in while now, but honestly this game is the best RPG game on the PS2, no doubt!

well have fun playing it, and listening the music! LATER!!!

GaMeS GaMeS GaMeS

10th POST!!!!

well, this is my 10th post and so i thought today i might talk abt something i really love!
GAMES!!!

i started playing games when i was arnd 9-11 years of age, back then i started wiv the PSX the very first Play Station Console, which was huge!

When i was 13 years of age, my PSX crashed cuz of the rounds and rounds of beating that it took frm me(hei i was angry and losing), so my dad bought me the PS One when back he came frm one of his trips, but by that time i already discovered the gaming pleasures of PC games, loL!

but i overcame that and stuck wiv my PS1, and that stuck wiv me until the end of last year, i still remember that day, it was a stormy day, lightning was visible to my very eyes, but i forgot to turn off the switch to my PS One adapter, and well, lightning struck my hse, and myPS1 was shocked and smoked, may it rest in peace now...

then arnd decmber of last year, my parents saw me suffering wivout games, literally, cuz i hv been experimenting wiv the computers in my hse, such as Programing and Hacking and VIrus Creating, well, none of em did well, but yh so they bought me a PS2

so today i'll share wiv my TOP 5 games of both PS 1 and 2

so the first one is a console which i hv lived wiv most of my lifetime, the PS One!
so the top 5 games are:

1. Final Fantasy Tactics
2. Legend of Mana
3. Final Fantasy Series
4. Castlevania: Symphony of the night
5. Vagrant Story

this is a couple of clips of my favourite game for the PS One console



that is the intro of the game, cool aint it! the sounds is just amazing!



this is a commercial for the game, the weird thing is, not many people knw abt this game and im not surprise as it didnt receive much of a hype as the other FF series did, its such a fantastic game that deserves a lot more respect


so thats abt my old console, next is my PS2 games

the top 5 so far are:

1. Persona 3
2. Persona 4
3. Smackdown VS Raw 2009
4. Devil May Cry 3
5. Guitar Hero Series

so since i hvnt held the PS 2 for long but yh, i really felt that Persona 3 is the best game out there



that is the opening intro of the game, really anime like, thats why i love it so much!



that is their trailer, a really epic trailer for such an epic game!

i hv no shoutouts for today, im sorry! but yh i kinda hvnt met or talk wiv anyone today, loL!
so have nice day, HAve FUN!

LATER!!!

frm yours truly,
Z Zaki

BiG moVIe thIs WhOle DaY

so today i had my second movie marathon

and today its all abt the acting, i used to act on stage in drama competition representing my school, we won third place! wohoo!

when i was on the stage, i felt like i could be anyone and do anything as long as i cn imagine, i don't knw what it is, but since i was young, i was fond of the stage, i felt like it was my home, i felt so comfortable, but the weird thing is, i never liked being the centre of attention, cuz when i am, i'll start being nervous, and when that happens well, i'll be clumsy and uncomfortable, weird aint it? loL!

ok so my idols in acting are prolly obvius, such as:

1. Tom Cruise
2. Will Smith
3. Bruce Willis
4. Tom Hanks
5. Shia LeBouf
   
6. Brad Pitt
7. Mickey Rourke
   
8. Matthew Perry
9. Ryan Reynolds
10. Brandon Lee

and loads more, i could go on and on and on, but then i'll never get to the point of this post..

ok so the first movie is The Last Samurai
this movie is my favourite by far, cuz of the acting and the storyline, its such a beautiful story of a lost civilisation in a modern era, its brilliant!



another thing why i love this movie is also cuz its abt a samurai, and i love samurai, the way they live and die by Honour is remarkable!


ok so the second movie is Die Hard
one of my all time fave, im telling you Bruce Willis acting in this movie is really something, he acted like such an ass one minute but then when he's talking on the radio he was so gentle, its great!



well, for everyone who loves this movie, they knw that one of the reason that we love this movie is cuz of the rounds and rounds of cursing

the next movie is Independence Day
another all time fave, this is mostly cuz of the high flying action and directing



now everyone knws this movie is famous for its remarkable speech at the end of this movie, and i cnt deny it myself, i love it!

the final movie is I, Robot
now this movie is great mostly cuz of the nonstop action, but another part is abt the robots soul, that was interesting



well, thats abt it for my movie marathon, nothing much else!
owh you wanna knw if i was really acting? well, i dont hv a video for that, but i do hv proof! loL!

SHOUTOUT:

1. to harinder: i really got bad news for you, im really sorry
2. to nas: sure im cool wiv an outing haha! hvnt been out since last week! crap!
3. to jwa: im counting the days of your comeback home, and its not going well, loL!
   
4. to mysarra: hope you enjoyed this one, and yh i linked you by the way

alryte then, so thats it for this post! have Fun! Good Nyte! Sweet DreamS!

LATER!!!

frm yours truly,
Z Zaki