Perfect Nightmare by Shontelle

no sleep....

cnt sleep....

im jst digging my own grave...im jst hurting myself...i dnt care...at least you'll be fine...you should get your rest...i dnt need it...i'll be fine..jst let me be...i care abt you...if not i wouldn't be going into so much trouble...

its not abt love..

its abt respect...and yes i do respect you...but bits and tiny fragments of my mistakes...that keeps recurring...its annoying...its sickening...its practically disgusting...

im stupid...i make bad jokes...idiotic views...remarkably dumb choices...and insanely stupid actions...and i know that...its jst i cnt control them..see a human makes a mistake every now and then...see...A human makes A mistake...meaning

1 Human = 1 Mistake x Every now and then

me? i make them every minute of every day...now that aint every now and then..thats every minute of every week..thus my stupidity equation looks a lot like..

1 ME = X problems x 60 minutes x 7(24)

i think....

BASICALLY....

it means that i make more mistakes than normal humans do..yes this post is another example of my stupidity...

look...

yes i did a bad thing, and it may seem like im not listening to you..but i was...i was there...i waited for you...woke up from slumber for you...and now..because of you no...because of my stupid actions TOWARDS you...i cnt sleep...and im sorry..for hurting you...for being me...and for having the worst choice picker..i love you..i really do...and i jst hate leaving our fight hanging...and i told i wont sleep until you tell me how you really feel...and since you're already asleep, i guess i wont...

im stubborn...you know how stubborn i can be...and you know when i've set to stay up or wait outside or something...i will...i'll carry it through to the end...im sorry for the hurt i caused...im sorry...

good nyte..

later...

Loser Like Me by GLEE (New Directions)

 

CUUUUUTEEEE!!!

 

how is that a simple thing as facebook poking, can be sooo addictive???

 

 no doubt i want this shirt...not /\ but \/

no actuall point to this post actually..more of jst wanting to update it..

owh btw im home..im finally am..for 4 months..i finished my matriculation so now im waiting for results..hoping and preying that it will turn out the way i wish for it to turn out..

so yeah...i have been keeping myself busy by watching GLEE and WWE Tough Enough...and may i say...how GLAD i am that Mickael got the boot, he had no personality, no passion, no flare what so ever..

he's jst there..but at least he's a lil better than Arriene who i believe wasnt meant to be there in the first place..i mean i agree with Steve Austin, she's a powder puff no matter how you look at her...sad actually..

hem..

on a last note:

i miss you so much suhaila..so much..and i love you deeply..take good care of yourself at home k? cuz im not there to take care of you..

until then..LATER!!!

1st Anniversarry...

2nd of April, 2011...One whole year..12 months...48 weeks...365 days..

who would've thunk...hahaha..who would've guessed...thought..knew..expected...

to be a whole year...i did..she did as well..hem...

its ridiculous that me and you have been going on for a year, we went through so much together..and although we nearly fell apart..but we stood strong and stick together through it...they say its still early to say we have gone through everything..and yeah i agree...

but..we did survive together when everything else nearly didnt...you believed and trusted me..and i nearly broke that...but even after all of that, you still stood by me...

i wanna im sorry...im terribly sorry for hurting you every single day...for not understanding...for annoying you...for not giving you enough space...and for all the wrong doings...

i also wanna say thank you...thank you so much...for singing me a song...for walking tirelessly through mid valley with me...for listening to me jabber and whine...and for always and always..telling me that you love me...

i love you so much...soo much... <3

dont ever leave me...cuz i promise i wont leave you...

from yours truly,
Dora..